I have been tracking my calories a lot better and exercising well, BUT the scale is up! Way UP! Like 5 pounds for the week UP! AGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get me off this
ROLLER COASTER
NOW!!!
Here is my weekly picture before I knew what the scale said:
I am really trying not to let this get me down but oh how I hate the scale sometimes!!! I must say that the scale read 207.6 last Sunday then 203.8 on Wednesday but today it said 209! YUCK I HATE that number!!! I NEED TO SEE the 100’s AGAIN!
I have the best husband in the world! He has recently taken an interest in eating better and exercising. I am so thankful for this because I am really struggling! We are counting calories together and checking in with each other. If I stay strong on on course I will reach my birthday goal. The scale climbed a little last week (all time high since my original weigh loss of 207.6 lbs) but I know I can still reach my goal since I have 2 months. I will be posting a weekly picture just as I did originally with my weight loss. I find that it really helps me focus on changing.
I could see my breath but it felt so good to do a quick 2 miles (averaged just under 10min/mile today). In a couple weeks I’ll be back up to 4 miles. I really need to get my body back into running shape! My breathing is what I notice the most.
I want it to feel effortless again.
I set a goal to be 190 pounds by my birthday, May 26th. This is a good goal. This is an attainable goal but it seems to be slipping out of reach. Not really but it is. I am exercising, but not hard enough. I am making some healthy food choices but not all the time. I am not fully committed to reaching my goal. I want to reach my goal but it seems too HARD. I know I CAN DO HARD THINGS but I want that food more. Darn food!!!
I am recommitting myself to my goal. I will go out for a run today with my running partner for first time this season and I hope I can keep up and not die. A little dramatic but I haven’t had a good outside run since last fall, that is a long time ago. We are only running 2 miles so I should be okay even if we have to walk. So this is my mind set right now. I need to trust in the Lord and let Him take my food cravings/addiction from me and move forward in reaching my goal.
I reread “Forget me Not” from October General Conference this morning and it really helped. I have posted it below. We all need this message!!!
WATCH IT!!!
For another great post on “Forget Me Not” hop over to my friend Barbara’s post it is a wonderful post that I can relate to 100%.
UPDATE: We ran our 2 miles and we killed it!!! We kept between 9:13 and 9:30. WOW!!! I now have hope that I can run my half marathon the end of June and actually run it well.
I received a blog inquiry with this beautiful email a month or so ago and finally with life slowing down a little am getting around to posting it.
Most people do not put their thoughts on paper—consequently leaving them without tangible reminders and constant ambition. I’m sure you can imagine how important this idea could be for those going through health struggles regardless of what they may be. An individual going through treatment, in remission, and even the family members of those with chronic or terminal illnesses face everyday challenges of maintaining a quality of life—self-motivation and inspiration is the key!
I’ve recently been invited to be a contributor on the Mesothelioma Cancer Alliance blog and have the ability to reach a wider audience. Awareness is an important factor when it comes to health and healing, so please let me know if you would be interested in allowing me to contribute a small guest post on your blog or if you would consider putting a link to my MCA blog on your site as a resource for your readers. I am eager to build up this concept of encouragement without intruding in on your own personal goals and accomplishments.
Here is her posting:
Making Goals Helps to Achieve Them
Many people that are diagnosed with cancer, including rare forms such as mesothelioma are subject to thinking about their prognosis on a regular basis. They feel sick; not because their cancer is directly making them sick but because they are dealing with something they never thought would happen to them. Being diagnosed with cancer brings about an array of feelings and emotions that can be difficult to digest, which can make a person feel sick. These emotions are strong and come on fast; there is no point where they begin to develop. They are fast and furious and can make a person feel out of control of their lives; something cancer has a way of doing to people.
Feeling Better
Doctors are now encouraging their cancer patients to keep a journal, diary or blog. By writing down their emotions and feelings, people tend to feel better physically. Many people feel these strong emotions that they have no control over and begin to feel overwhelmed and out of control; these emotions are difficult to deal with and people often become upset over them. Journaling is a great way for those people to deal with their emotions almost immediately. Putting pen to paper and letting those emotions out onto the paper in words is a tangible reminder that there is a way to deal with anything that life throws at a person. It has been proven that this is an effective way of making people feel better in the physical sense.
Goal Making
Additionally, doctors feel that it is important for patients to make a list of their goals that have nothing to do with their cancer. These goals will serve as a tangible reminder that once they have dealt with their cancer they will be able to get started on the things they’ve listed. These can be big goals or little ones. Cancer patients can make it a goal to learn to dance so that when their children marry they can dance with them at their wedding or they can make it a goal to learn another language so they can visit that country for an extended period of time. Whatever a person wants to make a goal in their life, there is no better way to achieve that goal than to write it down and look at it daily to remind themselves that this will happen for them.
Journaling is a great source of therapy for those that have cancer. It is an unbiased, non-judgmental place where they can write down their feelings without fear of judgment or inappropriateness. A journal is a valuable item that anyone can have and everyone should take advantage of. It’s much cheaper than therapy, after all.
Thanks Melanie for being interested to post here on my blog.
