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For Boston

I don’t know if I can call myself a ” runner “ right now but I put on one of my race shirts today and I ran a mile for Boston.

I hope you did too!

~Being the Me I am Today and LOVING IT~

I can sit around all day miserable because I am 20 some pounds heavier than I want to be or I can choose to ignore the numbers on the scale and just be happy.  Yes, the food continues to win but the exercise is coming back. Slowly but it is there. Will I ever be the size I really like being, sure!  Will it happen tomorrow? NO!  In 6 months? I don’t know. What I do know is that I NEED to be HAPPY NOW!

The scale is put away for now.  New pictures were taken today to remind myself that I am still beautiful even at a heavier than perfect weight.  I need to love myself the way I am today!

   

 

I have a man that loves me no matter what size I am!!

I am blessed to be a mother of 5 amazing children that love me!

  

Don’t Worry!

I now have a goal to work toward!  I just registered for my 3rd year running in the AF Canyon Half.  I have  MOTIVATION!!! 13.1 miles won’t feel good if I don’t lose a few pounds and train hard. 75 days till race day!

 

Drowning!

That sounds dramatic but that is how I feel.  I am eating WAY TOO MUCH and all the bad stuff.  I am NOT EXERCISING at all!  I have gained 20+ pounds since December. Moving threw me way off. Not having my exercise equipment available for 3 months I quit exercising.  Once you lose your routine it is so hard to go back. None of my clothes fit.  I am having to buy new bigger clothes. :-(

I told myself a year ago that I would NEVER do this to myself!!! 

I just really hate how I feel so I run to food to ease my pain which of course is not the answer and just makes everything worse.  I keep saying tomorrow I will do better and I make it through part of the day and then the eating begins and the laziness sets in.  My relationship with FOOD has NEVER, never been worse.  I am doubting my ability to do this again.  It is so hard!  I want to like the woman in the mirror again.  More importantly I want to feel good about how I am treating myself.

I KNOW WHO TO GO TO FOR HELP.

I NEED MY SAVIOR! 

I CAN DO THIS!

I HATE HOW HARD THIS IS!!!

 

I didn’t want to post a picture. I don’t like this picture but… this is me today.

I need to make change. 

I WILL DO IT!!!

Am I Ready to be ME?

I was asked to be a guest blogger for a dear friend of mine. What a blessing is was to have to sit down and put a few of my thoughts and feeling down again. Writing is very therapeutic for me. I have put everything ahead of my health and well being and boy have I slid way off track. Gladly there is time to get back. We always have the ability to choose our path and I choose health and happiness. I begin today to become ME again. The ME I love to greet in the mirror. The ME that wants to go run and happily serves others. The ME I know I need to be!

Here is what I wrote:

The lady that lost over 200 pounds. The one that runs half marathons. The one that eats healthy and exercises religiously 5 days a week. She is toned, she looks healthy and fit. That was me…..until I let the things of life derail me. Gladly I am not too far gone that 3 months of intense attention to proper eating and exercise will fix things. I cringe every day I go to put on clothes. 15-20 extra pounds really makes for a huge muffin top in your favorite jeans that fit just right at Christmas. The question is, am I ready to change? AGAIN? Am I willing to let go of the unhealthy foods and the lazy body that doesn’t want to move? I am slowly working on this change. The food is still winning most hours of the day after 4pm. I have my started using my elliptical and treadmill again and it feels great to sweat.

Little changes every day will help me to eventually reach my goal to be healthy. I have decided that as much as the number on the scale reflects advancing toward my goal it is more important how I feel about my body. Right now I don’t like how I feel or look. I want to feel true to myself. I know what healthy feels like. To go out and breeze through 4 mile runs without effort, to eat right and not want the sweets, to slide easily into those favorite jeans and feel fantastic. I WANT THAT AGAIN! I REALLY DO!

The question is…. Am I really ready to change my way of thinking and DO what is required? YES, I think so. Not too convincing is it? I still love food I have a food addiction. I am overeating terribly. I need to rely on my Savior and Heavenly Father more to remove this from me.

 I know I can conquer this trail as I have in the past but it is hard. It requires a strength beyond that which I possess. I need heavenly help to achieve my goals. I must become humble and seek that help. I know that is the only way I will reach my goals.

 I can do this hard things. 

I can BECOME who I want to be. 

 I can REACH HIGHER and DO BETTER. I can be ME!

 I can do this hard thing. 

I can BECOME who I want to be.

 I can REACH HIGHER and DO BETTER.

 I can be ME!

Week 6 Results:

Becky Jones
	1.12%
Dan Jones
	5.18%
Lora Isbell
	1.24%
Elizabeth Harmon
Chelsea Barnett
	-1.24%
Ashley Becar
	7.25%
DJ Conger
	8.73%
Louise Brown
	3.88%
Becky Katoa
Diane Roggenbuck
	0.38%
Heather Stockton
	0.40%
Shauna Kemp
	3.68%
Josh Barnett
	0.00%
Jessica Batson
	1.96%
Paula Olsen
	9.89%
Melissa Leatherwood
	9.28%
Leslie Arnoldson
Dave Leatherwood
Daina Freeman
	0.00%
Melissa Gibson
	3.44%
Maxine Buhler
	5.20%