Getting my Self Control Back

Yesterday was a great day for self control.  I decided only fruit and veggies for breakfast and lunch then for dinner I'd include lean protein and whole grain.  I DID IT!  It was hard but I kept control over food and didn't let it control me.  Today I am baking and decorating tons of cupcakes for a charity race and an extended family birthday party.  6 dozen cupcakes to be exact! That is a lot of cake batter and delicious homemade frosting.  I WILL have control and NOT even taste it!  This is one one my biggest weaknesses but I need to be in CONTROL!!!  I can do HARD THINGS and for me this is a hard thing!!!

Now just to get my body healed from my fall on Monday so I can exercise again!

BTW I am down 1 1/2 pounds so far!!! 

 Breakfast /mid-morning snack  today                                           Lunch today.

 

Dinner tonight. 

Guess what I WON!  I did not even lick one finger with cake batter or frosting and I baked and frosted 7 dozen cupcakes.  Yes, a victory!!!

The New Look

What do you think?  Erica did a fantastic job at capturing my vision for the blog.  The separate pages aren't working yet but they will soon.  I love the header.  The before picture of me looks happy but my eyes are not open to all that life has to offer me.  After of course is a fit woman who has her eyes wide open to all that life can give.  I'll write more later but I'm just so excited for the new look!  Go check out www.thefairyblogmother.com

The Beginning of the Year

Coming soon my blog will look much different.  A month ago or so I WON a blog makeover from "the fairy blogmother".  Erica has my blog almost ready to go live.  She has done an amazing job!  I can't wait for everyone to see it!  So that will be fun to start the new year with a new look.

On another note I enjoyed myself to a lot of Christmas, New Years treats and have some hard work to do to get my flabby stomach back into shape.  It is incredible what 2 weeks of "cheating" can do.  I exercised as I always do but ate what I wanted without counting calories and WOW it made a huge difference.  Nearly 6 pounds!  But I will get it off in the next couple week and be back on track because that is who I am now!

( On a side note I tripped and fell yesterday so I am nursing a bruised  and strained hand, bruised ribs and hurt knee and shoulder so maybe I'd better start on this goal next week.)

Health Goals for 2012:

• Stay below 200 pounds (preferably right at 190)
• Work out hard at least 5 days a week
•  Be aware of my caloric intake
• Become more athletic, more muscular
•  Enjoy life, BE HAPPY
•  Be more active with my children and husband
• Complete 1200 miles of exercise in 2012 (run, walk, elliptical, bike)

Happy New Year!  

I hope all of us will have a very 

healthy happy year!

Merry Christmas!

For the first time in 2 1/2 years I took the day off and ate anything and everything.  I fear that I ate a whole weeks worth of calories in one day.  I can’t wait to try out a couple gifts tomorrow when I run.  To see my wonderful Christmas go visit my family blog http://www.myreasontosmile.blogspot.com .

The Best Gift

Keeping myself healthy and strong is the best gift I can give myself.  When I am physically strong I am able to be spiritually strong.  When I am spiritually strong am I can serve others better. I have been “cheating” A LOT but I am also exercising and toning and trying to enjoy this holiday season unlike the last couple of years when I wouldn’t allow myself to eat anything “bad”. I pray that you will have a very blessed Christmas season and enjoy all that this season holds.  For me this has included making with my children  dozens of gingerbread men,  cupcakes, fudge, caramels as well as a neighborhood cookie exchange.  Why such a huge change for last year?  I now trust myself that I won’t go back to the 390 pound body that I had before.  Now I guess that is really the best gift ever!!!

Merry Christmas!!!

Letter of Love

Dear Becky,

I am so proud of you and how much you have accomplished in the last 2 1/2 years.  I never would have believed that you were the same person if I was to pass you on the street.  You carry your self with such confidence that I know you are comfortable with who you are.  Your eyes are full of experiences that I hope you’ll share with others.  Many need your help and you need to be open and willing to share.

I am worried that you are too hard on yourself.  You have accomplished what seemed like an impossibility.  On your own, truly of your own will you have made this miraculous change. I always knew you were capable of anything and you have done it.  Feel happy with where you are.  Don’t freak out over small changes.  Allow yourself some enjoyment.  Cheat every once in a while and have fun!

You are incredible woman and you have opened up a whole new world for yourself.  Please believe this and never forget what you have done.  Of course there is regular maintenance that seems much more difficult than the journey has been, but you are strong and you will be just fine.  There will be hard days but don’t beat yourself up about it.  Pick yourself up and begin again!  You know what to do and you will win in the end!

I love you so much and want you to be happy.  I love to see the light shining in your eyes.  I want to see that light more often.  Be good to yourself and know you are amazing!  You have accomplished remarkable things! 

Love,

Becky

(Now to get myself to truly believe all that I’ve written here.  I’m working on it! It’s a daily battle but I know I can do this!)

Rough Day

The day started well with a great toning class at 5:15am but then real life hit and I was a mess with my eating.  I can do really well for a few days then I slide.  I am really looking forward to seeing the ladies tomorrow at our support group and sharing ideas.  I am also totally bloated for some reason.  (It may be hormonal.  My body timing is all over the place so that is always a possibility.) I may try going off of whole wheat for a little while and see if that makes a difference.  I self sabotaged all day.  AGGHHHHH!  I can overcome this.  Tomorrow I will do better!!!  Thank goodness for repentance and new beginnings. I hate the fact that food is my greatest temptation in this life!

I just reread this and I am all over the place but that is how I feel right now.  I think I'll hit the elliptical before bed then get up ready for bootcamp, kickboxing then support group. Tomorrow is going to be a better day!