Sunday, March 31, 2013

Drowning!

That sounds dramatic but that is how I feel.  I am eating WAY TOO MUCH and all the bad stuff.  I am NOT EXERCISING at all!  I have gained 20+ pounds since December. Moving threw me way off. Not having my exercise equipment available for 3 months I quit exercising.  Once you lose your routine it is so hard to go back. None of my clothes fit.  I am having to buy new bigger clothes. :-(

I told myself a year ago that I would NEVER do this to myself!!! 

I just really hate how I feel so I run to food to ease my pain which of course is not the answer and just makes everything worse.  I keep saying tomorrow I will do better and I make it through part of the day and then the eating begins and the laziness sets in.  My relationship with FOOD has NEVER, never been worse.  I am doubting my ability to do this again.  It is so hard!  I want to like the woman in the mirror again.  More importantly I want to feel good about how I am treating myself.

I KNOW WHO TO GO TO FOR HELP.

I NEED MY SAVIOR! 

I CAN DO THIS!

I HATE HOW HARD THIS IS!!!

 

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I didn’t want to post a picture. I don’t like this picture but… this is me today.

I need to make change. 

I WILL DO IT!!!

2 comments:

  1. You can do it. Today at church one of the speakers was talking about the atonement, and how the Saviour did more than take our sins upon him, but that we should [cast] all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

    He's waiting for you. He can lighten your burden.

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  2. I'm new to your blog but I'm so excited to go back and read older posts. The things you said in this post I totally say to myself every day! It's nice to know there are others who struggle with weight but have overcome it!

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