This competition I am doing is my way of crying out for help! I have no intention of winning overall. I am so hopeful that someone out there needs this change as much as I did the first time I did a weight loss competition and that this will change their life. I will reach my goal and I will document the process every step of the way! My goal will be lofty but attainable with a lot of hard work. With my Savior’s help and the support of my amazing husband and kids I can do this!

This past year has been a battle with my food disorder. I don’t know what else to call it. I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I wish I could just eat to live but that is not who I am. I eat to satisfy every emotion. I have been overeating and binging terribly for the past year. It started at Thanksgiving last year when I just wanted to eat normally for the Holidays. Normally? What was I thinking? Even people who eat moderately don’t follow any rules at Holiday time. This idea of just enjoying food for the holiday season put me on the road to self destruction. I did not too bad through the spring and summer but recently it has gotten out of control.
I have done a pretty good job keeping my weight under control with running a lot up until the weather changed but now the pounds have come on fast and furious. I couldn’t believe the scale today. Not water weight this time but true fat gain. I did this to myself. One bite of pizza at a time. One cookie at a time. I even drank root beer last week. I haven’t had pop in over 3 years! I am so disappointed in myself and to be completely honest I am a bit ashamed to admit where I am at. I have let myself down! I feel like I am letting all of you out there down too!
I have been looked to as an example of positive change and healthy living and look at me right now! I am a mess! I don’t want to stay here though. I do desire to change and I will change! The last time I saw these numbers on the scale was in the Spring of 2010. I hope to NEVER see them again. I will conquer this food disorder. This time will be different! I will keep on the right course with my eating.
So where am I at today?




Just wait till my “after” pictures on Valentine’s Day! I can’t wait to see the difference! My goal is to lose 10%. 21.4 pounds in 12 weeks. I will be 193 pounds or less by Valentines Day. I haven’t seen that number since March 2011 so it will be a tough goal to reach but I know I can do it! I WILL do it! What will your goal be?



These pictures were taken February 14th 2011. I can’t wait to be back there again and loving my body!